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…and I Took Back What He Stole From Me

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My Momma always said, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder”.  Are you fond of my blog yet?  You should be, it’s been absent almost a year.  I could blame it on slow internet or busyness, but that wouldn’t be entirely true…it would be entirely a lie.  

I’ve had this fragment of a song going through my mind for the past several days. “I went to the enemy’s camp, and I took back what he stole from me.”  I’m not sure where I heard it, but it has seemed pretty appropriate.  What was stolen from me?  What did I take back?  This.  Writing.  You are witness to the Lord’s victory, simply by reading this blog!

I have always considered myself a decent writer (I am not asking you to agree and certainly not asking you to disagree, just being honest) and have always enjoyed writing.  But over the years I have all but quit. Quit writing in all its forms; journaling, blogging, even emailing.  I’ve mostly just avoided it and what little I have written has been pounded out grudgingly.

The Lord likes to talk to me while I drive my moto and the other day this was the topic.  He began by asking why I had quit writing.  My first response was, “why not”?  Not surprisingly this was not a sufficient answer.  He asked me again.  “I don’t have time.”  Wrong answer Number Two.  “I don’t like it.”  Yeah, God’s not gonna buy that.  “I have nothing to say.”  Ding, ding, ding!  Honesty as last.

He then proceeded to gently agree, “You’re right.  You have nothing to say, but I have a lot to say and I want to say it through you”.  We hashed this out for a few blocks and finally I understood.  Writing is a gift God’s given me.  A way to share what He’s doing, what He’s teaching, Who He is.  I should be using it to declare His glory.

He showed me that I’ve allowed Satan to silence me by stealing my passion for writing and leaving in its place the lie that I have nothing to say and that God has nothing to say through me.  As if somehow, what the Lord is doing in me, through me, and around me is not worth sharing.

Here’s an excerpt from my first journal entry of 2012 (my first since September):

     “You’ve given me the gift of writing, which means You’ve given me something to say, because You     
      do not give incomplete gifts.  Forgive me for allowing Satan to steal that gift and shut me up, for
      rolling over and letting him walk away with Your glory.”

So as I swerved through intersections that day, I went to the enemy’s camp, told him where to go, and took back what he stole from me, in the name and by the authority of Jesus.  What God is doing in me and in Cambodia is worth telling.  His glory is worth declaring.

     “Come and hear, all you who fear God, and I will tell what he has done for my soul.”  Psalm 66:16

I hesitate posting this for a few reasons.  It is a really personal thing for me and not something I am excited to broadcast.  I also don’t’ want to misrepresent my intentions; my blogs are still likely to be less than regular.  But who better to keep me accountable than the entire internet?!

 

     

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Written by stephndavis

January 1, 2012 at 4:03 am

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